Mary Pols had always wanted children, but Mr Right had never come along. Then one day she met a guy. Cute. Much younger. Definitely unsuitable. But she went home with him anyway. What was the worst that could happen?

Well, nine months later she was going to find out...

As time unfolds, Mary's problems seem to grow as rapidly as her bump. Money. Childcare. How to tell her large, respectable family (especially her dad). Above all, what is she to do about the baby's father? He's sexy but hopeless - almost as much of a boy as her baby-to-be.

Accidentally on Purpose is a funny, heartwarming true story about becoming a mother, finding happiness in the unexpected and compromising in the name of love.

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Chapter 1

The Trojan on the Floor

I stood in a backyard hung with streamers, trying to talk myself into a good mood while I waited for my hamburger to cook. This was my friend Dave’s fortieth birthday party. I ought to be cheerful. There were balloons, for God’s sake, and a homemade cake, and I was surrounded by plenty of people I loved and others I liked and others I imagined I’d like if I knew them. But while it wasn’t even my fortieth birthday—not for ten months anyway—I felt each and every one of Dave’s years. I was almost middle-aged. Ancient. The damp, foggy wind that is the specialty of a San Francisco summer whipped through my hair, and I could have sworn it whispered Spinster in my ear.

The passage of time was evident on all our faces and bodies. There was the former playboy novelist, grown thick around the middle; his boyish good looks were fi nally going to seed. He looked happy, though, chasing his young son around the backyard. An old fl ame of mine, the one we thought would never settle down, stood with his arm wrapped protectively around his vastly pregnant wife. My friend Kir joked about her crow’s-feet, yet her oldest daughter stood nearly level with her shoulder, green-eyed and beautiful. Milestones seemed far less traumatic when you were bringing new life to the party.

The hamburgers were still raw in the middle. The cute orthopedic surgeon my friends had promised would be there had been called into surgery and wouldn’t be coming. I went inside to the bathroom and stared into the mirror. My hair was frizzy and the gray was showing, although, sadly, not in a glamorous Emmylou Harris kind of way. I felt so left behind. I was the same person I’d been for the last fi fteen years. I could be counted on to be fun, wry, and sarcastic. But I was also chronically lonely, sick of myself, sick of my sad stories, and even sick of my funny stories. I contemplated going home to soak in my sorrows. I’d put Kieslowski’s Blue in the DVD player and break out my bottle of Irish whiskey. The cats would comfort me. The wind whistled up through the cracked bathroom window to add a fresh taunt: Cliché, it hissed.

I decided to go to Liza’s house instead. She’d recently separated from her husband, Hugh, and he had their two young sons for the weekend. Liza and her brother John would cheer me up. I’d known them for more than half my life. As college students, we’d worked together at a funky old summer resort in Maine, the kind of familystyle place that liked to hire waitresses and busboys from liberal arts schools with names the guests recognized. Twenty years later, there wasn’t much we didn’t know about one another.

We made pasta and discussed our various romantic plights. John thoughtfully stroked his goatee and nodded sympathetically. He was single, but Liza and I assumed it was only a matter of time for him. He sold wine, bought French soap, baked bread, and was nice. He was a catch. Not for me—he was practically my surrogate brother— but for someone, someone lucky.

I found myself prowling the house after dinner. I wanted to wash away the gloom of birthdays and the absent orthopedic surgeon. Usually it was easy to persuade Liza to set out on an evening’s adventure. Up until the last few years, she had been fairly demure.

Always elegant, but hidden away in baggy jeans. All that changed when she and Hugh moved to San Francisco. Her jeans got lower and tighter as her spirits grew higher and the marital bonds looser. Now that she and Hugh were apart, John had moved into their fl at to keep Liza company.

“Just one beer,” Liza had said finally, shrugging into a suede coat.

When we got to Finnegan’s Wake, she flatly refused to advance past the first empty barstools. She was wearing a kerchief over her impeccably maintained blond highlights. She looked as though she’d rather be scrubbing the tub than going out for a pint.

“I’m Hagrid,” she kept saying. Her older son was deep into Harry Potter. “I don’t want to be seen.”

So John and I perched at the end of the bar with her. The walls were brown and there was a pool table, and that was about the extent of the decor, the perfect blank slate for an evening. If we didn’t run into someone we already knew at Finnegan’s, we could usually count on making some new friends. A doughy middle-aged guy on the adjacent barstool had instantly perked up at the sight of us. But between Liza’s charwoman headgear and John’s barely suppressed yawns, I doubted it would be a late night.

I looked out the window. A guy in a baseball cap smoking a cigarette caught my eye. Cute, I thought. Really cute. Young, though. Maybe thirty-five, probably younger.

The cute guy flicked his cigarette to the ground and walked into the bar. He sat down beside us, taking a coaster off the top of a halfdrunk beer. He knew the doughy guy, who had been attempting to engage Liza in conversation from the moment she sat down. This often happened when we were out. When it came to men, it was almost as if Liza emitted one of those whistles that only dogs can hear.

She sat up straighter in the presence of the cute guy. He had an infectious smile and wide, sexy eyes. Within minutes Liza had got him to lift off his green A’s cap, revealing short, dark blond hair and a receding hairline. I could tell she was doing age calculations in her head based on the hairline. I was doing them too. She asked his name. It was Matt.