WINNER OF THE EDGAR AWARD 2019 FOR BEST PAPERBACK ORIGINAL
There was a time when Jackie Reed knew her sons better than anyone. She used to be able to tell what they were thinking, feeling, if they were lying…
But it's as though every day, every minute even, she knows them a little less. Her boys aren’t boys anymore, they’re becoming men - men she’s not sure she recognises, men she’s not sure she can trust.
So when one of her son’s classmates is killed in suspicious circumstances, people start asking questions.
Was it really a hit and run? A car-jacking gone wrong? Or something much more sinister?
Now Jackie must separate the truth from the lies.
How did that boy end up on the road?
And where was her son that night?
Praise for A L Gaylin
‘Right now, A L Gaylin is at the very top of her game, crafting exhilarating and audacious crime novels that are both rich in character and rivetingly told. Her books are, quite simply, not to be missed. ’ Megan Abbott
‘This is mind-blowing suspense from an exceptional writer.’ Alex Marwood
‘You'll stay up late to read this one. A L Gaylin is a storyteller guaranteed to keep you up all night.’ Laura Lippman
And last but not least: ‘AL Gaylin is a great storyteller.’ Mark Billingham
'A multi-layered tale that will keep you guessing, and guessing again…slick, smart and surprising, with sinuous twists and turns. Go grab a copy – now!' 'Crime Fiction Lover'
‘chock full of suspense’ Damp Pebbles blog
‘does not disappoint’ Shots Mag
"Gaylin just gets better and better. An outstanding book from an outstanding author."
"Quite extraordinarily brilliant…enthralling energy that burns page after page…Alison Gaylin is unquestionably a superb story teller. Her tight grip on descriptive prose and dialogue are quite simply a joy to experience, time and time again… Sharp, witty, furiously paced…If I Die Tonight is a total delight from first word to last and thereby cements A L Gaylin amongst the very best writers around"
"suspense-filled tale that tugs at your heart strings… gripping a shocking final twist…If I Die Tonight is not to be missed"
"About the profound unknowability of teenage boys, the volatility of female desire, the complicated messiness of single parenting and the ferocious power of the social media mob is a crucial text for today, a primer of suburban anxiety, hysteria, hypocrisy and fear. Told with fluency and verve, and with a keen eye for a resonant simile … If I Die Tonight is a marvellous book."
"A multi-layered tale that will keep you guessing, and guessing again…slick, smart and surprising, with sinuous twists and turns. Go grab a copy – now!"