But that path is fraught with difficulty, and the shadow of war hangs over her story. As the second volume, Youth, opens, she begins her independent life: the day she starts a new job in a typing pool is the day that Hitler invades Austria, she writers matter-of-factly. But the focus here is not on global politics; it is the inner drive of the writer. One evening her landlady invites her to drink a toast to the Führer but she is more intent on her mail – she’s sent her poems to the editor of a journal called Wild Wheat. With astonished pride she records his response: ‘Dear Tove Ditlevsen: Two of your poems are, to put it mildly, not good, but the third, ‘To My Dead Child’, I can use. Sincerely, Viggo F. Møller.’
Viggo F., as she calls him, is decades older than she is, but he becomes her first husband, the first in a line of unsatisfying, damaging relationship that will eventually pull her into the cycle of addiction that led to her early death. In clear and tender prose, Ditlevsen conjures an extraordinary mixture of hope and fear at the end of Youth: hope for her writing, her career, fear that she herself is not adequate, is not enough. In the central volume’s final pages, she comes home to find her first book of poems – Pigesind, which means ‘Girl’s mind’ – fresh from the publisher. She feels ‘a solemn happiness’. ‘The book will always exist, regardless of how my fate takes shape,’ she writes. But at the same time she tries to hide what she calls her ‘ordinary’ self from Viggo F.: ‘he isn’t the least bit interested in ordinary people… I hide everything that could make him have misgivings about marrying me.’
It is her own self-doubt that shadows the final volume, Dependency. It’s worth noting that its initial title, upon its publication in 1971, was Gift – Danish for ‘married’. Dependency much more accurately conveys the way in which Ditvelsen not only moves from man to man, but into the numbing fog of drugs that will sap her vitality and her talent. It is Carl, her third husband, who introduces her to Demerol; when he first gives her an injection ‘a bliss I have never felt before spreads through my entire body. The room expands to a radiant hall, and I feel completely relaxed, lazy and happy as never before.’ The reader feels as helpless as the author as the cottony drug-fog envelops her: we are absolutely present in her pain and loss of control.