What's the worst that could happen? Where do your darkest fears lie?


What's the worst that could happen? Seriously. Where do your darkest fears lie? The one that knots your gut; that you push from your mind with a prayer and a shudder. Probably your loved ones feature; your partner, parents, friends. Or, more likely, your children...

This is the story of an ordinary woman plunged into chaos. After years of abuse and addiction, single mother Niki Shisler had finally found herself with a wonderful new marriage and a perfect baby. When Niki unexpectedly becomes pregnant with twins life begins to spiral out of control with a series of dramatic events. The twins are born mysteriously ill, hanging onto life and, as family life refocuses around these two tiny beings in Great Ormond Street Hospital, Niki learns that there is always light to be found, even on the darkest days.

This is a uniquely moving and compelling book. It will grab hold of you, wring your heart and leave you inspired.


  • An intensely moving, sometimes unbearable account... It's about passion and love of humanity. Anyone who thinks otherwise should get Niki's book, one of the most uplifting and life-affirming that we have ever read
    Richard and Judy, Daily Express

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Niki Shisler

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