Where You'll Find Us

A profound, beautifully written and deeply moving YA novel about trans identity, queer history and found family with a high concept hook – from the critically acclaimed author of IF TOMORROW DOESN’T COME, for fans of WE ARE OKAY and THEY BOTH DIE AT THE END. 
 
Calla Quick has no future. 
 
At least, that’s how it feels. Her parents disowned her via text message, and now she can’t afford to go to an all-women’s college with her girlfriend Ramona like they planned. 
 
But Calla wonders if maybe that’s for the best—because even though Calla told Ramona her parents disowned her because they found out she’s gay, the truth is, Calla has been questioning whether she’s a girl at all. Calla wishes she had more time to figure everything out, and one night, her wish is seemingly granted. 
 
When Calla and Ramona stumble upon a mysterious farmhouse the woods, they meet five teens who claim they’ve lived there for decades. The land, which they call Amaranth, acts as a safe haven for queer kids throughout history—a place free of hate, free of violence, free of time itself. Here, Calla can be Cal and use they/them pronouns, and they feel instantly accepted. 
 
They don’t have to worry about the future because at Amaranth, it will never come—until one night when the clock strikes twelve. 
 
Now under a literal ticking clock, the housemates must find a way to stop time again or face going back to their harsh realities, but as Cal learns everyone’s story, they begin to wonder what queer people lose when their history is lost to time.

Jen St. Jude (they/them) is a Lambda Literary Fellow, who holds creative writing degrees from Colby College and Harvard University Extension School. Jen grew up in New Hampshire apple orchards but now lives in Chicago with their wife, daughter and dog. @jenstjude

In this beautifully profound YA novel, a trans teen finds a home where queer kids from all different decades have found refuge from hatred-and from time. 
 
Calla Quick has no future. At least, that’s how it feels. Her parents disowned her via text message, and now she can’t afford to go to an all-women’s college with her girlfriend Ramona like they planned. But Calla wonders if maybe that’s for the best—because even though Calla told Ramona her parents disowned her because they found out she’s gay, the truth is, Calla has been questioning whether she’s a girl at all. 
 
Calla wishes she had more time to figure everything out, and one night, her wish is seemingly granted. When Calla and Ramona stumble upon a mysterious farmhouse the woods, they meet five teens who claim they’ve lived there for decades. The land, which they call Amaranth, acts as a safe haven for queer kids throughout history—a place free of hate, free of violence, free of time itself. Here, Calla can be Cal and they feel instantly accepted. They don’t have to worry about the future because at Amaranth, it will never come—until one night when the clock strikes twelve. Now under a literal ticking clock, the housemates must find a way to stop time again or face going back to their harsh realities, but as Cal learns everyone’s story, they begin to wonder what queer people lose when their history is lost to time.

Jen St. Jude

An electric, urgent miracle of a book that asks what--and who--we dare to live for. Avery's story will shatter your heart and fill it with light again.

Kelly Quindlen, bestselling author of SHE DRIVES ME CRAZY

A novel that carves a space in your heart and remains there forever

Rachael Lippincott, bestselling co-author of SHE GETS THE GIRL

Achingly tender and poignantly honest . . . This book is a marvel.

Adrienne Tooley, author of SWEET & BITTER MAGIC

Leah Johnson, bestselling author of YOU SHOULD SEE ME IN A CROWN

Lush, searching, and ultimately full of hope. I loved it.

Emily M. Danforth, bestselling author of The Miseducation of Cameron Post

An absolute life changer - and life saver - of a book

Dahlia Adler, author of COOL FOR THE SUMMER

If Tomorrow Doesn't Come will leave you wanting to read it all over again

Jen St. Jude

Praise for If Tomorrow Doesn't Come

An electric, urgent miracle of a book that asks what--and who--we dare to live for. Avery's story will shatter your heart and fill it with light again.

A novel that carves a space in your heart and remains there forever

Achingly tender and poignantly honest . . . This book is a marvel.

An electric, urgent miracle of a book that asks what--and who--we dare to live for. Avery's story will shatter your heart and fill it with light again.

A novel that carves a space in your heart and remains there forever

Achingly tender and poignantly honest . . . This book is a marvel.

An electric, urgent miracle of a book that asks what--and who--we dare to live for. Avery's story will shatter your heart and fill it with light again.

A novel that carves a space in your heart and remains there forever

Achingly tender and poignantly honest . . . This book is a marvel.

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