Abused by the ones who were supposed to keep her safe

Did You Ever Love Me?

The moving true story of a young girl, sexually abused by her father and her journey to move forward from the trauma of her past

Toni Maguire (Author) Toni Maguire has published four bestselling books, including two which covered her own story, Don't Tell Mummy and When Daddy Comes Home. Her success encouraged others who had kept their childhood secrets hidden to approach her and she has so far co-written seven memoirs. Toni lives in the UK and has lived in Ireland. Cassie Cook (Author) Cassie is now a carer for the elderly, with a good relationship with her sons. Although she has had to accept that she will never have a physical relationship, she has found a way to move forward from the horrors of her past, and would call herself a happy woman.

How do you stop your past from determining your future? 
 
“It’s what daddies do with their little girls,” he explains, “every little girl does it. But it’s a secret, and you must not talk about it.” 
 
Cassie was too young to remember when her father started abusing her, but she remembers how unclean it made her feel. When she got married at sixteen and had a family of her own, she thought she’d finally escaped his clutches, but he found a way to make sure she could never move on. Turning to drink to cope, Cassie’s babies were taken into care and her husband left her. Now would begin the biggest challenge of her life: winning her children back and working to eclipse the pain of the past. 
 
This is the heartbreaking true story of a little girl that just wanted to be loved.

The shocking true story of a young girl abused in a Jersey care home

They Stole My Innocence

The shocking true story of a young girl abused in Haut de La Garenne, one of the most notorious care homes

Madeleine Vibert (Author) Madeleine Vibert was taken into care when she was just a baby. She spent her early years in a crèche and her memories from that time are good ones. But that soon changed. At the tender age of five, Madeleine was transferred to Haut de La Garenne, the institution that made headlines just a few years ago. Madeleine was regularly abused under the home's care. When she was finally able to escape, she overcame her demons and married the love of her life and had two children. Toni Maguire (Author) Toni Maguire has published four bestselling books, including two which covered her own story, Don't Tell Mummy and When Daddy Comes Home. Her success encouraged others who had kept their childhood secrets hidden to approach her and she has so far co-written seven memoirs. Toni lives in the UK and has lived in Ireland.

'Lying in the prison of my bed, his dark silhouette closes in, a pillow in his hands. My throat tightens in fear…’ 
 
At the tender age of five, Madeleine was living a daily nightmare. In a dark, grey building on Jersey, she was just another orphan, defenceless and alone. She was also an easy target. 
 
Unbeknownst to the outside world, the care home manager was abusing her, using her like she was his toy. “Say nothing, no one will believe a nasty little kid like you,” he’d whisper. Terrified, Madeleine would keep quiet. And, worse still, the home was selling the children to men who would inflict on them the worst possible abuse. No one cared. 
 
This is Madeleine’s heart-breaking story and her fight to survive.

Can't Anyone Help Me?

The shocking and inspirational true story of struggle and survival against all odds, from the bestselling author of Don't Tell Mummy and Helpless 
 
'Inspiring . . . shows the true meaning of strength' 5***** Reader Review 
'Heartbreaking and gripping at the same time' 5***** Reader Review 
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 Jackie was an unwanted child. 
 
So unwanted that her mother regularly left Jackie at her uncle's house. Which was when the nightmare started. 
 
For when his wife went out, her uncle's friends came round. He had a Special Room. In it, Jackie was tied up and molested, beaten, burnt by cigarettes and urinated on. Sometimes other children were brought along. Jackie got to know the Special Room intimately. 
 
 Jackie could never bring herself to tell her mother. She ended up in a home for disturbed children. She ran away, and a life of homelessness, drugs, prostitution and psychiatric wards followed. 
 
 Eventually, Jackie sought help. But could she turn her life around? 
 
Or would her evil uncle and his Special Room haunt her forever? 
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'I could not put it down' 5***** Reader Review 
 
'I was gripped throughout' 5***** Reader Review 
 
'Very well written, I read it in one day' 5***** Reader Review

Toni Maguire is the author of four bestselling books: Don't Tell Mummy, When Daddy Comes Home, Nobody Came and Helpless.

Jackie was an unwanted child. So unwanted that her mother regularly left Jackie at her uncle's house. Which was when the nightmare started. For when his wife went out, her uncle's friends came round. He had a Special Room. In it Jackie was tied up and molested, beaten, burnt by cigarettes and urinated on. Sometimes other children were brought along. Jackie got to know the Special Room intimately. 
 
Jackie could never bring herself to tell her mother. She ended up in a home for disturbed children. She ran away, and a life of homelessness, drugs, prostitution and psychiatric wards followed. 
 
Eventually, Jackie sought help. But could she turn her life around? Would her evil uncle and his Special Room haunt her forever? 
 
Can't Anyone Help Me? is the inspirational story of struggle and survival against all odds as one young woman attempts to put her torturous past behind her and make a future for herself.

Don't You Love Your Daddy?

Toni Maguire is the author four bestselling books: Don't Tell Mummy, When Daddy Comes Home, Nobody Came and Helpless.

The deeply shocking story of a mother's neglect and a father's betrayal 
 
Sally East's heartwrenching story starts when she was only three. It was then that her father first touched her inappropriately, as he started to groom her for the future. 
 
Sally's mother, a woman who suffered from manic depression, neglected her on her 'bad days', as Sally called them. She would turn her face to the wall and ignore her small daughter. But Sally loved her mother and waited for the 'good days' to return. 
 
When she was only six, Sally's mother died. Then when Sally most needed to feel secure, safe and loved, she paid a price that nearly destroyed her: with his wife dead, Sally's father felt free to abuse his daughter whenever he wished. The conflict of wanting to be cared for by the same person who was violating her sowed the seeds of self loathing - something that would haunt her for many years to come until the death of her father. 
 
Now in a supportive relationship and with two children of her own, Sally has at last found happiness. Bestselling author Toni Maguire not only puts a voice to Sally's heart-rending story but shows the long-term damage that child abuse does.

Toni Maguire

Lynn Murray

A picture-perfect family with a terrible secret

Every family has its secrets, but some are worse than others. 
 
‘I had learnt to switch myself off from feeling anything when he molested me. Just lie there like a wooden doll and don’t give him the satisfaction of allowing one whimper to leave your mouth.’ 
 
Lynn’s mother wanted the world to see the perfect family. An immaculate house, three well-dressed children and a charming husband. But behind closed doors it was a different story. 
 
Abused by her father from when she was just a baby, Lynn would scream for her mother, who ignored the little girl’s cries. Nothing was going to shatter her perfect life. Threatened by their parents, Lynn and her brother never told anyone in fear of being separated, but the trauma of their past followed them throughout their lives, with devastating consequences. 
 
Now as Lynn tries to piece together and come to terms with her past as an adult, she discovers she wasn’t the only one with a secret.

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